Story of my life written by jenissa tolliver

 August evening, I was brought into this world, new fingers and ten wiggly toes. Blessed with pretty brown eyes and a soul that speaks through them. Years went by to fast for my mother but seemed to drag on for me. Each Moment, a different rhythm, in our shared reality.

Age 13, found out that I have a different dad. Couldn't wrap my mental. Nothing made sense, love was now in question. Shattered pieces of my heart, seeking understanding. We met face to face, butterflies in My stomach, years of wondering Now led to this moment, unmistakably Iconic. Meeting my bio dad for the first time, a blend of excitement, nerves, and thoughts sublime. Time passes, we met again only for you to tell me Florida is calling you home and that's where you’ll be. Our newfound bond stretched across miles, holding onto moments, cherishing little smiles.

Met someone who created a world of lies, A fake reality that had me under a trance. Caught in illusions blinded by his disguise, only to realize the truth with a heart wrenching glance. I thought I was in love, that we were a forever type of thing but I was wrong, and it shattered Everything. Dreams of eternity faded like a song, leaving behind heartache where hope used to belong. The boy grew up a liar, a trait he inherited  from his mom. While the girl blossomed into a romantic, The opposite of her father. The pain and lies became our tragic reality. Hopes of forever turned into a fight or survival, love twisted into something dark and primal.

A daughter’s saving grace, her mother. Saved her heart from a monster but the trauma had already made itself at home, a haunting imposter. Though love and projection tried to mend the broken pieces, the shadows of the past lingers, refusing to release me. At this time, I was carrying our unborn daughter, every heartbeat, a reminder of the precious life growing inside me. The weight of the world felt heavier, the stakes higher, protecting her became my mission. Amidst the turmoil and fire.

Unpredictable actions, i’m questioning is this even worth it? Emergency restraint took place, a desperate attempt to quit it. Caught in the chaos, seeking clarity amidst the storm wondering if there's a way to a place where it's safe and warm. Judge declares visitations to an absentee father. One hour of supervised meetings, emotions growing harder. Each visit is a reminder of broken promises. A fragile connection, words left unspoken.

You moved on, I tried. Being the default parent and dating is harder than it looks, juggling love and responsibility, rewriting the chapter of our shared books. Every day a new challenge, every night a reflective pause, balancing the weight of parenthood with the pursuit of a lost cause. All it took was ‘hey, darlin’ and this man had me falling. It could be the accent or maybe it was the way his eyes were enthralling. A spark in his gaze, a pull that caught my heart, whispering promises of a love that wouldn't part.

This man willingly drove over 3,000 miles to meet me, which says a lot compared to the boy next door, you see. His dedication and effort spoke volumes loud and clear, while the boy next door never showed he cared enough to be near. He sent flowers to my home, even from across the states. A gesture so sweet that my heart couldn’t help but celebrate. His thoughtfulness and effort reached me through miles, compared to the boy next door, who couldn’t even muster a smile. He says the distance is worth your smile. A thousand miles feel  like nothing for a chance to see you for a while. His words carry the weight of his devotion and care, while the boy next door never even dared to share. I think I've won the lottery. This man worships the ground I walk upon,showers me with his love, even through a phone screen until dawn. Every message, every call,filled with tenderness and care making me feel cherished, his love a treasure rare.

As I look ahead, my heart is filled with hope and light, knowing that with him, everything feels right. Distance may separate us for now, but our love will endure for I found a love that's deep, genuine and pure. Reflecting on my journey that brought me here, the hgihs and lows, laughter and the tears. I've learned that love is resilient, and hope prevails even hen life gets tough and the world assails.

In the end, it's strength within that guides our way, with a heart full of love and brighter days to stay. so here's to the future, with dreams and a song. For i've found my place i truly belong